JUST RANDOM FREAKIN HEARTBEAT

so.. today is Christmas day and there's some several things i wanna say about life...
i'm going to talk about 'NOW' condition, i'm being confused with couple things in my life... i mean actually.. and basically.. i really love interior design.. sketching with freedom, drawing interesting object, designing a good room, but when i choose interior design as my major in college, everything has been ruined badly !! now i really hate interior design, i don't know why.. i hate some of my lecture, i hate the way i should be, for god sake.. it's not ME at all...